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Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Good Life (One Republic)

In three days it will be a month since my sweet Nana passed away. I haven't done a very good job opening up about this one but I feel that it is time to openly celebrate the life she had.

My Nana was the most remarkable woman I have ever met. Being related to her was a blessing. The Lord was looking into the future and watching over me when he guided my Nana into adopting my father.

It is crazy to think about how strange life is. I mean, had my Nana never adopted my dad I would have probably never met her. But I know Heavenly Father knew what he was doing because through all the crap I have gone through everything has fallen into place BECAUSE of my Nana.

I remember before my Nana moved out to Utah to stay for good she was ALWAYS flying down. We would always go to the "tourist" sites and have an amazing time. I remember all those times when we would take her to the airport (when we could go through the gates) and my brothers and I would all watch her get on her plane and stay there forever and watch her plane fly off. Then guess where in the sky she was at a precise moment.

When she moved to Utah, I was overjoyed. She literally lived right down the street. I swear I spent more time there than I did at my own house; Jacob and Mycal too. Her house was always my getaway. When I got told no I went crying to her; and she was there.

I remember all the outfits she made me. How she always made sure to compliment me when I wore dresses; I think that was her way of trying to get me to wear them more. Ha.

When my Nana began to mean the most to me was when my mother left. My Nana was all I had. She was my mom and my grandma and I could not have asked for any more.

With all that was going on in my life my Nana was always reminding me to take it easy, to "make a good girl", "thank God for everything" and "take care your dad". That's the kind of person she was. Always watching over everyone.

In her last days, I will never forgot the love I felt. For her, towards her, and from her. No matter what kind of tests they were doing she was constantly making sure I was ok.

I know my Nana made a difference in the world. I know this because of all of those who showed up for her. So many fond memories were shared. It was a special thing to experience. The Spirit that was felt there can not be described but I will always hold them in my heart. And I will always remember her life, her smile, her guidance, and the beautiful life she had.

There is this song that I have loved for a long time. It always reminded me of my Nana. Now that she is gone it cuts deeper. I will probably quote it a lot more in the future. It is titled "My Angel" by Kellie Pickler. The lines that get me are:

"You were like my mother.
My best friend.
Never been another, to love me like you do.
My grandmother.
My angel." 

I love you Nana. You made my life so much better. I can't thank you enough. I know you are better now.

Monday, May 16, 2011

First One (Boys Like Girls)

Welcome all.... to my blog. I am not exactly sure what got me wanting a blog in the first place but here it is. I originally had a different "blogging" page that wasn't as grown-up as what I'm wanting to go for. I feel like I've done a BIT of maturing in the last month or so, hence the change of heart.

I don't know how good of a blogger I will be but this is more for me anyways. To share what is going on in my life and to express myself. Overall though, I do hope to somewhat entertain my readers.

Please do not get confused with my blog title/name/theme/ and so on. I don't have some freaky fetish with the Pirates of the Caribbean or anything like that; in fact I hate it, but that's another subject. Anyone who knows me knows that I am a Raider fan and thus believe that I am somewhat of a pirate. This is the life I have chosen. If you don't know me you will come to find out that being a Raider fan, for me, isn't just a football team I cheer for. It sorta defines me. And THAT is the reason for my blog title/name/theme/ and so on.

My blog titles will all come from songs. My bestie gave me the idea  and it was kinda fun so I'm gonna keep at it. Sometimes the title will go along with my post and other times what the song talks about will. This time, it's just the title. (First One, first post. Get it?? Yeah, easy.) I recommend you look up the songs I post.

As a forewarning, I am a rambler. I go on and on and sometimes get annoying. Much like I did above. I am not remotely concerned about it and plan on continuing to do so.

I shall conclude my post with that. You all have a lovely day and expect to hear from me soon.